At the Table

The fragrance of fresh bread fills the room. New wine chimes as it is poured. The cool evening air trickles in from the windows while He looks at each face, each illuminated by candlelight, as they sit around a colorful array of food.

When we see Jesus at the table with societal misfits, imagine Him sharing in the delight of the freshly baked bread with those around Him. Imagine the crumbs that may have fallen into His beard or His smile as He tastes local wine.

The way He looks each of them in the eyes, those often labeled as greedy, dirty and rejected, those unseen, even hated in their communities. These are the precious people Jesus welcomes as friends to the table. They begin to share their lives and their stories with the Son of Man.

Imagine their excitement as they whip up their favorite recipes and study His face as He takes the first bites. It is the first time they feel at home in their lived experiences. They loosen in His presence, experience profound solace in His friendship.

“Few acts are more expressive of companionship than the shared meal… Someone with whom we share food is likely to be our friend, or well on the way to becoming one.”

— Tim Chester

An Ekko member once wrote of covenantal living: “To me, this is the greatest miracle—to find home—to be able to abide, to be able to contribute toward building a home for others.”

At Ekko, in the practice and light of the Gospel, we are reconciled through Christ and drawn together by Christ.

We find friendship with Him.

But it doesn’t end there.

Out of the overflow, we begin to make space for the other. Much like the story of Zacchaeus, who finds utter acceptance and grace in the presence of Jesus, we can’t help but respond with grace, generosity and love.

Sunday Supper is one of the ways we practice this Zacchaeus-moment in our body.

More than sharing a meal between members and visitors, it represents the community, friendship and hospitality we get to share. Because we were once welcomed, we now welcome. 

“They committed themselves to the teaching of the apostles, the life together, the common meal, and the prayers.”

— Acts 2:42 (The Message)

So whether you have been a member for a long time, or are a newly minted Orthopraxis grad (Ekko’s introduction to discipleship), we who have been welcomed, now get to make room. We get to participate in what God is doing.

And we learn to save a seat at the table for other brothers and sisters like Jesus often did: at the table. 

Through Crowds and Static

She presses through the unforgiving elbows. Fighting through the resistance of bodies and noise, feeling the harsh eyes and sharp comments as she fumbles through the crowd. Her body is cumbersome with embarrassment, but she’s getting closer now. She can almost hear it. His faint voice, unhurried and gentle. Quiet and constant through the cacophony of voices. Desperation quickens in her spirit as she falls to a crawl. Careless, heavy feet drill into her fingers and hands. If she could just touch His robe, even just the hem.

She stretches one last time, and at that moment, when her fingers meet the fabric, everything in her changes.

She’s still clutching her stomach when her body begins to experience this foreign, yet familiar stillness for the first time in 12 years. It is as if all the static in the world suddenly became quiet.

“Who touched me?” she hears. The crowd loosens around Him.

She is still on her knees when His eyes meet hers.

Often, we don’t find ourselves in moments of desperation like this unnamed woman who is fighting to meet Jesus on the road. But we have all felt a similar yearning in our spirits for a connection with Him. Some of us have been those in the crowd watching others have this moment with Him and found ourselves curious and inspired wanting our own experience. Some of us believe and know that we could have that connection, but our lives are too loud and too imposing; the crowd too large. We are altogether too far, too tired and too busy. We have too much work, not enough time, no one to watch the kids whose fingers are sticky again – all legitimate things that pull us in all different directions.

With anything from anxious thoughts to indifference jostling around us like jutting shoulders in a crowd, we shuffle through life, straining to hear what God is saying. Where we can’t quite make out what He’s saying or where He’s going. Too tired to wrestle through the distractions and noise to reach Him.

But we all crave that moment, don’t we? That moment, when everything silences around us, where the crowds part like fog melting away in the afternoon, and we are met with the tenderness of God calling to us, “Son.” “Daughter.”

We need these moments to connect with Jesus, where you break through the restless thoughts and red lines on the map and looming deadlines to touch the edge of His robe.

To abide with Him and to know that you are seen, heard and known.

To be refreshed in His presence.

To actually hear what He’s saying.

This is what Kavannah Nights are for: it’s us creating space to engage with God.

And just like the unnamed woman in the Gospels, it requires us to fight through our fatigue, our apathy, our contented spirits or busy schedules in order to reach out, even to crawl, to connect with Him as a body.

Because we need Him. We need to connect with Him — especially when the resistance is high and we are tired or numb. As disciples of God, we need time to abide with Him, to worship Him individually and corporately to download His heart, to remember who He says we are and to engage in what He’s doing.

“Daughter,” He says to the unnamed woman with a smile, His hand outstretched bringing her bruised body to her feet. He is everything and nothing she hoped He would be. In His presence, she is healed, but more importantly, she is seen and known.


Kavannah Nights, Ekko’s Worship and Prayer Nights, will take place on the first Fridays of June (6/1/), July (7/6), and August (8/3) in Ekko’s summer season.

They will begin at 8 PM at Ekko Church.

Lights and Shadows

There are days when the sadness weighs like lead in your chest. When your ribs cave into themselves to board up the broken pieces of your spirit — to hide, to protect, to disappear. I shouldn’t still be dealing with this, you think to yourself. I should be healed of this by now.

Frustration binds itself with every cell until you are at war with yourself. Breath becomes shallow; thoughts billow like smoke to poison the air. Until you can’t distinguish between what’s real and what’s not. Until you can’t remember if morning will come again.

I am too much. I am too messy. I am too broken, you reason, tightening your lips. In days like this, you forget the refrain of this song.

You forget that you are not defined by your storms.

You forget that healing is a process. That it can take a moment, or it can take a lifetime.

Like bones, minds can break and they can mend. And they can break again. And when it gets cold, sometimes old fractures can still ache.

And hope, even if you can’t see it at the moment, is ever present and ever constant.  

Until the dawn comes, as it inevitably does, to warm the dark corners of your mind and settle like a salve on the wounds, wait and press in. Until the prayers you have whispered can be more than a breath. Until you have remembered the truths that His grace and restoration are not static, but moving to and fro like waves painting the shoreline. They are ceaseless in their step; they are unconditional in their ebbing and flowing.

When some days and seasons are harder than others, remember that the presence of mental illness isn’t a metric of your faith or spirituality; that it can affect members, leaders, and pastors. We all experience this tension of light and shadow within, turning in varying degrees and contrasts. 

Dr. Jessica Lee, a clinical psychologist and Ekko member, writes that mental illness “isn’t something that goes away if you pray harder or stop sinning. Some of the most depressed people are some of the most deeply spiritual people I’ve met.”

Because just as one of our panelists said on Mental Health Awareness Sunday, “God can heal our deepest hurts and pains, but if you have a broken bone, you need to see a doctor.” If you are suffering from a mental health condition, therapy and medicine are God-given tools to guide you as you wade through the waters of mental health.

For some, recovery can be a season.

For others, it a can be a lifetime.

And that’s okay.

As the church, we offer hope and the healing power of God’s grace through wholeness in community. We are a place of refuge and guidance for those who are suffering.

In His ministry, Jesus cared for the mentally ill and the sick.š

The Spirit of God, the Master, is on me
    because God anointed me.
He sent me to preach good news to the poor,
    heal the heartbroken,
Announce freedom to all captives,
    pardon all prisoners.” — Isaiah 61 (MSG)

Jesus’ healing is twofold: he heals the condition of our minds, spirits, and bodies, and he also restores us back into our families and communities. As Rick Warren writes, “In Christ’s name, the Church extends compassion, acceptance, and unconditional love to all who suffer from the pain of mental illness, and as his Body, we offer hope and the healing power of God’s grace.”

Our hope isn’t rooted in the fact that by focusing on God all our problems and sickness go away, but rather, our hope is in Jesus who enters into our mess and heals us. He is our peace from the unrest in our souls. There is not one of us who is too far, too broken or too dark for Him.

He is our hope that is ever-present and constant. He is the light that pours through the crevices in our spirit. 

And it is because of him, that we can, in turn, be a safe place for those in and around our midst suffering from mental health issues — even as we are being healed in the process.


May is Mental Health Awareness Month. According to a study done by Mental Health America, one in five Americans lives with a mental health condition.

If you are struggling with mental illness, here are some resources to help guide you. Open up to someone you trust or one of our leaders. There is hope. 

Mental Health Professional Referral List

Mental Health Awareness Sunday


š Matthew 4:24

The Old Has Passed

It’s hard to recall what each of the art pieces looked like, what songs we sang or even what words were exchanged that night.

But though the details are often fuzzy to recollect, you can always remember what it felt like at the end of Orthopraxis. The undeniable joy settling in the air, the tight hugs, the co-mingling of new faces and old—of pastors and members and those who hadn’t decided yet. It was like the tangible shifting of the seasons, like the first day of spring.  

That night, everyone had a story to tell, and some expressed theirs beautifully through the art of creative mediums. Without words, they could articulate what forgiveness looked like, what redemption felt like, what this season meant for them; and without further explanation or descriptions, we inherently understood. Because, here at the end of Orthopraxis, we had experienced it too.

Amidst the buzz of excitement and festivities, there were moments when it began to click into place as we looked around the room: that the healing and restoration we might have experienced individually were actually woven into a grander narrative of stories. Here, between the gallery walls that proudly displayed the visual and audible stories of our blossoming tribe, we all began to realize we shared in it together. That the old has passed, and the new has come.

Because of this decision we don’t evaluate people by what they have or how they look. We looked at the Messiah that way once and got it all wrong, as you know. We certainly don’t look at him that way anymore. Now we look inside, and what we see is that anyone united with the Messiah gets a fresh start, is created new. The old life is gone; a new life burgeons! 

2 Cor. 5:17 (MSG)

That night, we weren’t just celebrating the end of Friday night meetings or the end of readings and homework. We weren’t even celebrating the fact we could now become a member or serve here at the church we’d grown to love so much.

We were celebrating the beginning of something new. Individually and corporately.

At Ekko, Orthopraxis is the introduction for those embarking on a lifetime of discipleship with Jesus. The reason why we celebrate its end with food and festivities and with the sharing of testimonies and stories is not that it marks the end of a season, but because it marks the beginning. The beginning of a life-long discipleship with our Lord.

Just as a bar/bat mitzvah symbolizes a son or daughter’s “age of maturity” and marks a shift in their lives where they are now responsible for what they have learned, Orthopraxis Celebration is the time where our tribe recognizes each person who has participated in this process of discipleship, looks at them square in the eye, and says, “We believe you can look more like Jesus.”

But Celebration isn’t just for the graduates.

Celebration is for the members too.

It’s in the discipline of celebration that we begin to find ourselves reminded of how we first came to the Lord, how we began to learn how to forgive and heal, how we began to become who God dreamt we would be. You see, it is when we celebrate the beginning of someone else’s season that we too are drawn back into the grand Story that God is writing in the here and now. God begins to reignite the memories we had when we went through our own introductions of discipleship.

“We live in a world where bad stories are told, stories that teach us life doesn’t mean anything and that humanity has no great purpose. It’s a good calling, then, to speak a better story. How brightly a better story shines. How easily the world looks to it in wonder. How grateful we are to hear these stories, and how happy it makes us to repeat them.”

— Donald Miller

It is in celebrating one another that we are reminded that we, too, are called to a lifetime of discipleship.

That we, too, still need God’s grace and mercy.

And that we, too, are on a journey of looking more and more like Jesus.

You are invited to celebrate with our Orthopraxis graduates on May 18, 2018. You can RSVP for Celebration here; all friends and family are welcome to attend. Dinner will be served. Come dressed to impress!

It Was a Fresh Start

“I wouldn’t say I was bullied, but people would say mean things about me or spread rumors,” she begins as she twists her gold, beaded ring around her index finger. “I just always had that feeling of being excluded or being on the outside.”

In high school, Eunice would operate with her guard up. “I had to protect myself because no one else would,” she explains.

“I would even try to make friends at church, but it just wouldn’t work out,” her eyes deepen, “So I just gave up. It hurt too much. It was a really dark time in my life.” She looks up.

“I didn’t go to church for about five years, because I was so afraid of getting hurt again.”

Her cheeks soften as she folds a tissue within her hands.

Photos by: Steve Eunso Lee

About a year and a half ago, Eunice decided to join her sister, Jane, and visit Ekko for the first time. But as her sister pulled into the parking spot the first day, Eunice’s breathing became strained and difficult. She started to exhibit signs of an anxiety attack. “Eunice! Calm down, they’re not going to eat you!” her sister said in efforts to placate her. “They might!” Eunice cried.

For many years, church had been a source of deep pain and rejection, a place where her fears were often played out. “I was so scared,” she says thinking back on her early days at Ekko. “I’d often cry myself to sleep. I didn’t want to do it all over again.”

But every week after the first, she made the attempt to go with her sister. “It was hard, and if I’m being honest, I’m still nervous at times,” she nods, “But I was meeting new people. And everyone was so welcoming.”

“It was a fresh start.”

Eunice is soft-spoken and timid and every so often beams a smile that takes over her face. When you encounter her, it’s hard to imagine her with a painful past; she is unanxious and gentle, generous and empathetic. And when she begins to talk about the grandmas and grandpas at the elderly home she regularly visits, her voice becomes spirited and enthusiastic.

“They make me laugh so much. They make me cry,” she giggles. “I’m just so thankful for them.”

At around the same time she started to come to Ekko and belong to her new community, Eunice was discovering her heart for the elderly. What began as an internship while she was studying rehabilitation services, started to blossom into a passion.

When Eunice walks into the room where the elderly residents spend hours in between meals, it’s like watching the sunlight paint the walls yellow. Knowing each resident by name, she goes around touching each withered hand and kneeling down to each resident to say hello. She sees each and every one of them — even the grumpy, difficult and weepy ones who stay in the corners.

She reminds them that they are not written off or forgotten — not left to fade away in these last years of life.

That they are worth spending time with.

That they are cherished.

And that they are known.

Even in the days leading up to her visits, Eunice spends hours preparing and purchasing supplies for crafts that will help facilitate movement, creativity and mental stimulation. Though many of the residents have a difficult time holding paintbrushes or even understanding what’s going on, she patiently sits with each individual, carefully guiding each brushstroke and celebrating each little victory.

Whether she is providing birdhouses to paint for the residents, setting up a game of bowling or singing songs and encouraging others to dance, she invites everyone to participate. And if it’s difficult for a particular individual, she’ll improvise to ensure they can be a part of the group activity. Here, sheltered between beige walls amid wheelchairs and strollers, no one is left out.

Everyone belongs.

“I know that they are in the last stages of their life.” Eunice says, “I want to make them as happy as possible, even if they don’t remember me. I’m okay with being a new person every day to them. I just want to do whatever it takes to put a smile on their face.”

Photos by: Steve Eunso Lee

Because of Eunice’s joy and love for the elderly, her Ekklesia—her regional home group—began to join her on her visits as their local missional outlet every week.

“Eunice came alive whenever she talked about her interactions with the elderly at the home, and it was honestly quite contagious. Her passion burned and lit everyone else on fire. We didn’t really expect it, but week after week, our Ekklesia members kept coming out to support her.”

— Kevin and Janet Duh, Chino Hills Ekklesia Leaders

When her Ekklesia began to follow her to the elderly home, Eunice felt tremendous gratitude and belonging. And as she and her Ekklesia developed a rhythm of loving and serving the elderly, people at the church began to take notice and affirm her. “I was so shocked. I didn’t even know they saw me. I didn’t even know they knew my name,” she says, shaking her head. 

Photos by: Steve Eunso Lee

Though the pain of her own rejection and exclusion cut deep and threatened to derail her life for many years, God has met her here and traded her pain for a wealth of compassion and empathy. Through the redemption of her pain, Eunice is uniquely attuned to the hurts of those around her and embodies a welcoming and gracious presence. And as she sits with the elderly— those often forgotten in our communities—she sits with them. She laughs with them. She cries with them.  

Through her story, God has started to grow in her a vision for the invisible, the voiceless, those left behind or left out.

“I am still healing. And after going to Ekko and the elderly home, I opened up a lot. He has softened my heart,” she says with a bright smile. “I am learning that God hears our cries and doesn’t leave us oppressed.”

To read more about Ekko’s journey with elder care, you can read Pastor Bryan’s blog post here.